karottz

WI#13 and playing catch up

2009-10-27T19:00:00.002-04:00

geez... I need to update more often. My WI#13 was a big shock to me since I gained 2 lbs! That really bummed me out but I don't really know if I believe it since my scale at home was the same number it was the week before. I still can't decide if my scale is broken or what. Its a digital and sometimes the numbers seem odd? I don't know how else to explain it. So I didn't really beat myself up over it considering I did everything right the week before. I probably could have had a few better choices in food but I still stayed within my points. I did alright this week as well so hopefully the scale will reflect that as well. I weighed myself today and it still says 172?? AHHH lol

This week I do plan on working out more. So far this week i have worked out for 45 mins Mon. and today. My weight watchers week starts tommarrow so in that week I plan on working out at least 3-4 times!

please please please just have a loss tommarrow. I am SOOOO close to my 10% goal its so frustrating! I mean I was only 1.5 away from it like 3-4 weeks ago! Now because of the gain I am 3.5 away. ARGH. I hope in the next two weeks I get there. ! I really don't want to hit a plateau this early! :(

~crosses fingers for tommarrow

blah..

2009-10-20T19:31:00.002-04:00

That's really the only way I can describe the way I am feeling right now. I feel really down and depressed and it sucks. I even made myself workout today in hopes that I would feel better. My physical being feels good from working out but definately not my emotional one. ugh. I can't even really put into words how I am right now.

My hubby still isn't home. He had to go to something after work for work. So he won't be home till 8 or later. I did manage to do the bulk of the dishes today and take some new pictures of new earrings for my etsy shop though. I have been slacking in that department recently. I haven't added anything for a few days and its not a good thing! I even didn't finish uploading all that I needed to before today.

I have no motivation for anything. I feel like I am stuck behind a wall of stuff I need to get out of the way but seriously all I want to do is CREATE! I can't right now without feeling quilty about it. There isn't enough hours in the day!

Ugh tommarrow is my weigh in as well. I want to make my 10% soooo bad but am so afraid that I will just maintain again tommarrow. Is this freakin' day over with yet!???!!

I just want to cry...

WI #12

2009-10-15T19:46:00.002-04:00

Yesterday was my 12th weigh in with weight watchers. I was really scared to go to this one because I was worried that i would have gained from the turkey weekend that just past. Although I am proud that I watched what I ate and didn't have huge slices of pie. Just a few slivers. I am sure that I could have done better but I will take what I learned from that weekend and apply it to our Christmas dinner in a few months.

So back to the meeting, I went in and just maintained! I will take it! I was so relieved to not have gained. I know next week I will lose the 1.5 to get me to my 10% goal! So far I have lost 17.5 pounds!

So since its the 12th week I have redone my measurements. So a recap from aug. 19th my measurements were as follows:

arms: 12 in
hips: 43 in
thighs: 24.5 in
waist: 35.5 in
bust: 40 in

so now they are as follows:

arms: 11 in
hips: 42 in
thighs: 24 in
waist: 35 in
bust: 39 in

so that is a total loss of 1 inch loss in the arms, 1 inch in the hips, .5 inch loss in the thighs, .5 inch loss in the waist and 1 inch loss in the bust. That is a total of 4 inches lost since the last time I took measurements.

I definately can tell that I have lost weight in my hips, stomach and thighs! I am feeling so much better about myself as well! Only about 30 more pounds to go! :) I know I can do this.

Workout: The Firms - Cardio Overdrive

2009-10-08T21:27:00.001-04:00

I worked out tonight. I didn't last night even though I had planned to because I was soo freakin tired the whole day and so headachy that it just didnt happen. I almost didn't tonight either but I made myself remember how good I feel after a workout and just walked into the bedroom and threw on my work out clothes without letting myself think about it.

So I worked out and just like I knew I feel awesome and so glad that I did. I also burnt enough cal's to gain 4 workout points, which I am going to bank for the weekend. Tommarrow I plan on working out and earning another 4. :)

I feel great!

WI #11

2009-10-08T21:22:00.002-04:00

Yesterday was my 11th weigh in with weight watchers. I really didn't want to go weight in since I thought for sure I was going to have a gain. I have to stop stepping on my scale because it showed that I was up and that was just with my pj's on. I think maybe our digital scale is messed up or something. I went to the meeting and stepped up on it and was surprised to find out that I LOST 2.5 pounds!! She was like 'and you have jeans on to! good job!"

WOOT! So that made my friggen day :) Especially since last week I only lost .5. So that puts me at 17.5 total lost. ! 17.5!!! I am only 1.5 away from my 10% goal. I am hoping to hit that next weigh in.

I am nervous about this weekend though since it is our thanksgiving weekend. I totally have a plan though. I am saving my weekly points and will stay within my daily points each day. I will also work out to bank some exercise points and of course eat reasonably this weekend. I also plan on resisting sweets/pie as much as I can. At our meeting we learned that a small sliver of pie is like 9 pts! Wow, I like pie but maybe not that much!

I am confident so that is a good thing. The only bad thing is, is that I have two to go to! My family has one and my husbands family has one. So I will be stuffed of turkey and oh so sleepy. LOL

Workout - The firm's bootcamp max calorie burn

2009-10-02T16:40:00.002-04:00

I made myself work out today and I am so glad that I did. I love the firm workouts. Especially some of the original since they are so super challenging. Anyways I decided that today would be a cardio and weights sort of day. So i picked this workout since I haven't done it in awhile.

It really kicked my but. There were times when I had to do the easier version of stuff since I am not quite there with the plyometrics etc. My heart just gets beating to fast etc. But I still had an awesome workout! I wish that I could push myself harder with weights though but I am taking it slow. Its really a big long story about why I can't but its basically I get chest pains and I still an not entirely convinced its not my heart. Its really hard to tell if it is or if its just my muscles around it. I try not to push it. I have been to the doctor numerous times. I have had tons of tests done on it etc but still. Long story. So I just take it easy on it. I was using 3 and 5 pound weights so it still gave my arms a workout.

I feel healthier and stronger after doing it so that is good! The workout was about 50 mins long and I burnt 476 cals according to my heart rate monitor. :)

WI #10

2009-10-02T16:33:00.002-04:00

So I had my 10th WI at weight watchers this past wednesday. I thought for sure that I was going to have a gain. I was sooo convinced that I did. The weekend before we went home and sat I had the street fair, so we ate some food from one of the booths. I still had my weekly points so I figured if I ate something light for supper I would be okay and then just stay within my points for the rest of my days. Well my sister and brother-in-law invited us over for supper. So we went. Well they had made lazangna, garlic bread with cheese, caesar salad and my mom had brought a cake. BAH! I had one pc of lazangna, a piece of the garlic bread and a wee bit of the salad. And of course a piece of that darned cake! oo I think I also had a reg pepsi that day.

So yeah not the best (it was so good though!). So that is why really I was so convinced I had a gain. Also it was my TOM so yeah I didnt think that would have helped. So going to my meeting I was a bit bummed since the week before I was only .5 away from another mini goal and only 4.5 away from my 10%. Well I got up on the scale and she said I lost .5!! Its a small loss but it made my frikken day! So in the meeting I got my third 5 pound star loss!

I am hoping in another 1-2 weeks, well probably two weeks I will get my 10% and my key chain!! I am getting excited just thinking about it! Because this time I am actually losing the weight! So that puts me at a 15 pound loss so far. FIFTEEN POUNDS! gone for good. :)

Sooo happy and I feel sooo much better about myself about everything. My hubby and even myself notice that my stomach and my hips have definately lost some weight. To tell you the truth my boobs as well. Since the $40 bra I bought early this year is to freakin' big! :)

goo me!

WI # 9 :)

2009-09-23T12:33:00.002-04:00

So I had my weigh in earlier today and felt going in that I was definately down from last week and I was RIGHT!!

This week I lost 3.5 pounds which is sooo awesome! That puts me at 14.5 pounds lost so far and I tell you it feels great! Another .5 to go to get my third 5 pound star and another 4.5 to get to my 10%. I am really excited about that :) My clothes are definately feeling better, especially this one pair of jeans that I really loved but never wore to often since they felt like a second skin to me (wayy to tight) not they fit nice, even on the big side. My belt I have also been able to do it up about two notches from where I originally could. Just by feeling my stomach I can tell I lost weight there. I think I have also lost weight in my boobs. LOL I feel so silly saying that but earlier this year I had to go shopping for a new bra and was upset that I went up a cup size and now there are definate gaps on top. It no longer fits against my body like it should. Thats a good thing! Although it sucks that the bra cost like 40 bucks - but whatever. lol

Ugh other then that its soo dreary out today etc and a bunch of crap that is going on in my life that is stressing me out really is making the day drag. I really don't want to work on anything applefest related (the street fair I am in this weekend) but I really need to get my butt going on some stuff. I have to add stuff to my etsy, finish stuff, figure out how to get two boards to stay up and secure! Figure out how I should set the table up, make a sign for the front, and hope it doesnt freakin rain this year!

I was going to say something else but I forget what it is now! gah. Oh well must not have been to important.

toodles,
krissy

Workout: Turbo Jam 20 min

2009-09-19T20:46:00.002-04:00

So I had planned on working out on thrus and friday but I was so exhausted that I basically slept until a few hours before it was time to go to work. I won't have this problem next week since thrus I got a lay off notice, which I am really bummed about. Blah. I am hopeful though that it won't be very long since they only laid off 6 people this time instead of 12. So here is hoping. At least it gives me lots of time to prepare for my upcoming street fair next weekend.

anyways so I only worked out today for 20 mins but that is only because its almost 9pm and I really didnt want to work out that long, especially since we have to go to bed at a reasonable time tonight (instead of our usual 3-4am + lol - we are night hawks!) since we have to get up early tommarrow to go to Canada's Wonderland.

So I did Turbo Jam's 20 min workout. I love her workouts - so full of energy and I burn tons of cal's - especially when I do the longer 45 min ones. Anyways the 20 min workout I burned 161 calories.

I use a polar heart rate monitor with the chest strap. I love it :) I like it better then questimating how much intensity a workout is because I am always afraid of under or over estimated.

I feel awesome now and sooo glad that I got off my butt and worked out!

Random musings...

2009-09-16T13:20:00.003-04:00

So last night at work, when I was doing the most boring-est job in the world, I was thinking alot about stuff. Well when I wasn't zoned out, which probably was a good amount of my time, I think thats the only reason why the shift went by as fast as it did. lol. Anywas I degress. I was thinking about myself and my image and how I generally feel about myself. To be honest, and its so hard to admit it and to type it because I realize how completely untrue and stupid it is, is that right now I feel completely worthless. Like why would anyone want to associate or talk to me etc. It all stems from this feeling shitty about myself and being self concious and hating the way I look and feeling so freeeeaking fat.

I mean how can I go from glancing at myself in the mirror at home and thinking 'okay needs a bit o'work but not looking to shabby' to walking to the car going to work and glancing into the mirror and like being horrified? Feeling like a big fat slug. Blah! I know its probably all in my head but still. Why are our freaking brains so messed! Seriously.

Dunno. I think I have always felt this way. Throught most of my adult hood I hovered in the 150-165 weight range, which for my height isnt to bad. Even then I still felt like crap about myself. Oh what I wouldnt give to be back there now because my only problem then really was the fact that I did no excercise and I probably only needed to tone up etc. Then, due to stress, getting older or what not I gained like a million pounds which put me to where I am now again. Seriously. I know I am doing something about it and I keep telling myself that. And really I myself do not judge who I talk to based on what they weigh because really that doesn't freaking matter its who a person is as a person, so why the hell do I think other people judge me that way?

I've always felt this way and you think after awhile I would realize that that way of thinking is stupid and totally not correct. Now I regret a lot of things and think I probably missed out on knowing a lot of cool cats because I'm such a low self esteem, shy, feeling crappy about myself person.

HA! having said all that I know calling myself names isnt going to help and that I need to think positive but seriously this extra weight is like embarassing to me. Always has been, so i dont really understand why I never took care of myself before. I am definately glad that I have lost the 10+ that i have so far and I am seeing results in my clothes etc but I just wish I was about 20 pounds lighter RIGHT NOW! haha wishful thinking, a step at a time. I hope next WI is mucho better then this weeks. I am seeing a pattern in my WI's so I am not freaking out as much as I would have been a few weeks ago but still.

wow now I am rambling.. a lot... I really have a hard time getting out what I need to say and in a good way. But I think maybe finally typing that out might have been a good thing..I keep journals but you'll never find my complete thoughts on shit like this in them. Wierd I know but yeah... anyways...:)

Catch Up!

2009-09-16T13:06:00.002-04:00

WI#5,6,7,8

well, well, well, I am so neglectful of my blog :( I have been super busy the last few weeks and it seems like I never have time to do all the things I need/want to do. I'm definately still trucking though!

My WI #4 left me feeling a bit down but the next week in WI#5 I lost 2 pounds for a total of 8.5. So that made me really happy. WI#6 showed me staying the same again! But I sort of expected it to that week since it was my TOM so I just looked forward to my next WI. WI#7 did not dissappoint me since I lost a whopping 2.5 pounds! That put me at a total of 11 pound loss so far! Only a million to go but lets on think about that at the moment. lol. Anyways so that brings me up to day with todays weigh in which is WI#8 where I once again maintained! ARGH! I am starting to see a pattern forming. Although I did weigh myself on the scale at home before I went and it showed me down from last week when I did that so I still now I am going in the right direction. I wont freak out unless next week I stay the same.

I have been doing really well with eating these last fourish weeks and it just seems to get easier. Amongst those weeks I hit the 170's and lost another point but thats AOK with me since for a while there I was having a really hard time eating those last few points everyday. That puts me at 25 pts per day. According to WW scale I am 179, according to my scale I'm 175ish. Its so wierd how they differ - granted I am not wearing shoes/jeans/belt etc so that is probably why.

Next week I am going to start wearing my runners there but take them off for my WI so I might lose a bit more then I would have if I was just wearing my sandals. To tell you the truth though it doesn't matter to me, its getting chilly here and I was and still am FREAKING COLD! So yep definately going to be swithcing to just WI in with socked feet instead of sandal feet.

What else is new... umm the blog isnt the only thing that I had been slacking at. My youtube vids were behind as well but I did remedy that this week and also joined LisaBGreen512's sexy for santa challenge. So I am excited to be able to get to know other people that are doing what I am doing. Its nice to have some extra support! I'm a week late on that but its better late then never! I set a goal of 15 pounds by Dec 20th. I think I might lose more then that but if not its all good.

ooo I also should meantion that last WI sept 9th I actually met my first WW goal which was my 5% goal of 10 pounds. Woot. So now I am only 8 pounds away from my 10% goal of 19 pounds. Holy crap when I get to that one I am going to looove it! thats like 20 pounds gone!

Last week sometime I noticed that a pair of jeans that I really loved that were semi on the tight side were actually rather loose andbaggy. So that prompted me to pull out some other jeans that a few weeks ago I could not get done up or they were super skin tight. I know fit into them! Some more comfortable then others and some are still way to skin tight to wear out of the house but I could ACTUALLY get the damn things done up! It was such an awesome feeling! It's sooo nice to fit into my blasted clothes again!

anyways that is me playing catch up! I really need to blog more - although really I have like a million blogs so maybe thats why. lol (no not really I neglect my poor personal journal as well and always am playing catch up on it)

:) toodles,

WI#4!

2009-08-19T14:37:00.002-04:00

So I went to my weight in today. I have to say that when I got up I was sooo sure that I had at least lost a pound. Even when I put on my jeans that are pretty tight they even felt a bit loose. So I had high hopes when I went to the meeting, only to find that I stayed the same. I sort of felt crappy for a bit but then I realized that sometimes my body is just going to do that and I have lost 6.5 so far. If you average that out over 4 weeks thats pretty good. I know that I never cheated or over indulged etc at all so I eventually was fine with it. I did work out the two days before that , which were the first time in a long time that I had worked out so maybe that had something to do with it. Maybe I retained some water or something. I don't know.

I took my measuerments again since I had decided earlier that I was going to do that every 4 weeks. So my original ones were :

arms: 33.5 cm
hips: 114 cm
thighs: 64.5 cm
waist: 94 cm
bust: 103.5 cm

as of today they are as follows ( i also just want to add that I have no idea why I took them in cm?lol)

arms: 31cm (12in)
hips: 110 cm (43in)
thighs: 63 cm (24.5in)
waist: 90cm (35.5in)
bust: 101cm (40in)

so thats a total lost of 2.5 cm in the arms, 4cm in the hips,1.5 cm im the thighs, 4cm in the waist, and 2.5cm in the bust. That's a total of 14.5cm total in four weeks. Not to shabby!

So now I am looking forward to next weigh in and hopefully I will see a loss! I am very nervous about this weekend since its a surprise b-day party for my DH's uncle. There will be lots of food and booze. So I need to control myself. haha my DH already said he would be reminding me if he sees me chowing down on chips. Although with me being this nervous about it I doubt I will be doing any such thing. We are going to bring a few things which makes it better for me since then I will have at least two dishes were I know exactly the portion size and how many points it is. Its just the unknown. The alcohol really isnt a big deal since I really don't like drinking to much anymore. Just a drink will usually make me sleepy lol so yep :)

thats it for me!
toodles

Week Four, Day six

2009-08-17T12:25:00.003-04:00

So I worked out today for the first time in over a month! I realized once I was done how I missed it! I worked out to The Firm's Burn and Shape which is a combo of Cardio and Strength. It was about 40 mins long. I loved it :) I was sweating buckets as well. I think I burned about 377 cal's so that means I earned 4 points worth.

I had recently, well probably in june got a pair of runner's shorts and runners bra from Old Navy (love that store) and that was what I wore for the first time today. It worked out nice. I usually have an old bra on, with a old tshirt and my yoga pants but the way its been humid/muggy/hot here I probably would have drowned in sweat. lol even though I was still pretty sweaty afterwards. I used my yoga mat for the ground work because working out on carpet plus being sweaty = lint/cat hair/whatever else being stuck to the skin and it drives me nuts. So that worked out great even though I slide around a bit when on my knees.

I would LOVE to join the gym that is around here but working afternoons and not having the car unless I get up at 7:45 to drive hubby to work just isnt good for me. So for now I will be working out at home. Mostly to the firm but since I am starting back again I think I might alternate a firm workout with walk away the pounds. We will see. Right now I am aiming for at least 3 times a week. :)

WI#3!

2009-08-17T00:24:00.002-04:00

This is pretty late in posting. I meant to post last wed, the day of my weekly weigh in but ran out of time. So I only lost .5 of a pound this past week. I have to be honest and say that I am a little bummed about it but it still is a loss. Hopefully next week will be better. I'm sure that it will even out in the end. Ugh but still. I keep wishing all the excess weight was gone already but I have to keep remember that it will eventually come off if I keep on track. In saying that I have no urge to go off track but it still is frustrating. All in good time though. :)

So so far I have lost 6.5 pounds and that is good! I am anxious to see how I did this past week. I can't believe that its been four weeks already. So I don't really have to much else to say so I will go.

toodles :)

WI #2!

2009-08-05T14:36:00.002-04:00

I had my second weight in earlier this morning and I lost another 3 pounds! I have to admit that I jumped on my scale before I went (BAD I know) and it only showed a pound and a half loss so I really wasn't expecting three pounds! My scale and the scale there are not the same so I should really stop doing that. Anyways, I got my first five pound star. WOOHOO! for a total of 6 pounds lost so far. Thats 3 a week. Looking forward to next WI. I am feeling like I can really do this since I have my extra weekly points for when I want to eat something not so healthy. I can't believe its been two weeks already!

toodles :)
~I'm very happy Krissy today. 6 Pounds!

Week Two, Day Six

2009-08-03T22:14:00.002-04:00

I think this past WW week went by faster then the first. I don't know why, maybe it's because I am back to work or something. ~shrugs. Anyways I had a good weekend. We did eat out on Sat at Montana's but we were their early enough for their lunch menu. I had only eaten a 5 point breakfast that day since we stopped in during our running around. Unfortunately for me when I got home to figure out how many points the salad wrap thing was that I got - its like THE ONLY thing on their menu that wasn't in their nutritional info. Figures. Thats me choosing that one thing. Ugh. So I had to find something similar somewhere else and just questimate. I LOATHE questimating but no worries. I still had all the points from that day left (save 5) and all my WPA.

I am finding lately though that I am having a hard time eating all my points. I know when I lose some of them that wont be a problem but still. A few times last week I had like 5 left over and I really wasn't hunger at all when I got home from work. I do need to concentrate on getting my milk and oils in so that might help. Dunno I will see how it goes.

WI is in two days! I am excited to see how I did this week. Wish me luck!
toodles

WI #1!

2009-07-29T10:47:00.002-04:00

So I just got back from my first weigh in and I am happy to say that I lost 3 pounds! My leader gave me a high five when she saw that. So that is exciting! I am really happy about that. I know that probably in a few weeks it will taper off to 1-2 pounds but I will take it while I can! I can't wait to be at my 5% goal of 10 pounds and have my clothes start to fit me better.

I have been back to work for two days and it gets really muggy in there so that and being semi uncomfortable with my clothes makes me feel even more blah! But I am definately heading in the right direction! I think I might start to add a few workouts in next week but it really depends on how I feel since being back at work I am sore for head to toe. Hopefully with the long weekend coming up I will be able to bounce back quicker since I have three days off instead of two!

Here's to another week to staying OP!

Toodles
Krissy

Week One, Day Six

2009-07-27T13:27:00.002-04:00

The weekend went alright. We didn't leave until saturday morning so I was able to eat breakfast here at the apartment. We did eat lunch at wendy's but I made healthier choices and got a taco salad thing but ate it without the chip things or the salad dressing.

That night at the 25th wedding anni I watched my portion sizes and stayed away from the sweets. I really didn't eat a whole lot so that is good. Just enough to fill me up and resisted the urge to eat to many of the chips/nuts/cheesies they had on the tables. I did have a few chips but not lots. I let everyone around me eat them up. lol

So I am quite proud of myself. The whole week before the party I only ate my daily points because I knew I would need to use the weekly points for the weekend so that is what I did. I basically just said that I used them all on saturday because I have no way of knowing exactly how many points were in each thing. I really only took like a spoonful of most of the salads (Which were potato etc). Regardless I am proud of myself. I didn't go overboard.

So I am back to just eating my daily points. Only a few more days until I get to weight in for the first time since being OP. I am excited and hope that it goes well. Today is also my first day back to work. Can't say that I am looking forward to it considering sometimes I really hate being stuck in the same place for so long and doing the same thing. But on the other hand its a paycheck! Anyways off to get ready for work!

toodles

Week One, Day Three

2009-07-24T13:14:00.002-04:00

Today is going well. I waited to long to eat breakfast and lunch though. I woke up today with a big headache so I just grabbed something quick (a breakfast bar ) since I was in no mood to prepare anything. Thankfully that went away though without me having to take anything for it.

I tried couscous finally today. I bought a box of it awhile ago and kept forgetting about it. So along with an omelete that I made for lunch I cooked a bit of that up and gave it a try. I like that it is pretty quick to make and even it being plain really didn't taste horrible. I did add a tsp of low sodium soy sauce to it though. Now I just need to find some easy recipes made with couscous! :)

Anyways I think that's about it for me today.
toodles :)

Week One, Day Two

2009-07-23T15:01:00.003-04:00

Today is my second day following the plan. I am doing very well! Yesterday I did NOT go over my points and did not gave into temptation with munching. So I am proud of myself. I even made a really awesome dinner last night with left over veggies and some frozen veggies that I grilled (I think that is the right word) and put over some brown rice with a bit of low sodium soy sauce. I am not sure what I am going to make tonight. I'm thinking about doing the cola chicken, we haven't had that in awhile so I might give that a try tonight over rice.

I think we might need to go grocery shopping tonight as well since I am running low on stuff and completely out of other stuff. So far though I am pretty proud of myself and can't wait till all this weight is off for good!

I started a video blog on youtube if you want to check it out. I am in the process of getting my first video ready to upload. I decided that it will keep me motivated as well especially if people are watching it each week. Well hopefully that will be the case :)

www.youtube.com/karottz

Anyways I'm out for now!

toodles!

Intro and first WW meeting

2009-07-21T22:49:00.003-04:00

This blog is intended to keep myself motivated in losing the weight that I have gained a few years back. I had much success on the weight watchers turnaround program about three - four years ago and got my weight down to about 150. I had joined and went to meetings for about 4 weeks but stopped going since I was so broke. I kept doing it on my own though and like I said before got my weight down to 150. I should mention here that I am between 5'8 and 5'9. I was pretty happy being 150 but still wanted to lose at least 5-10 more. Unfortunately I was in a mega stressful semester in college and my eating just went out of control. I ate out a lot just because I was basically working on school work or at school all the time. I know excuses right? well it definately caught up to me and I gained about 40 pounds back.

Then last year in 2008 on my birthday my bf of 6 years at the time proposed to me. So of course I wanted to lose weight for the wedding. I really did not want to look and feel crappy on my wedding day. I also did not want to look crappy and flabby in my wedding photos. So I tried to get back on track with ww. I was doing semi okay. I really have to be honest and say that I really wasn't following the plan 100% since I felt like I still had lots of time. But I did try to watch what I ate and work out. Well through all of this my biggest mistake was not journalling! I would sort of keep tally in my head but really who knows how much over every day I was?

About a month or two before Christmas I really started to tackle it, making sure to journal eat healthy and exercise. Then christmas holidays happened. Me and my FI went home for a few days and everything went down hill again. By this time I managed to lose 10 pounds. After we got back I really never got back into the right frame of mind. My weight kept bouncing in the low 180's. I did however still workout when I could. In Januaray I found my wedding dress! I loved it soo much. I started to worry about losing to much weight and not fitting into it. So I think for that reason I never really tried to hard to drop the pounds. I was also laid off from work just before christmas so I was at home all the time! I am definately a boredom/stress muncher and being home all the time just wasn't good.

Thankfully I stayed around 180. Although the week before our wedding (we just got married on July 11th in a medieval inspired wedding!) I basically ate whatever. I didn't really pay to much attention to it and with the stress of getting everything done- yep not good. Thankfully though from the few pictures I have seen that people have taken on our day I looked amazing. I mean I actually liked how I looked. So to me that is a really good thing! Still not at the weight I want to be at but I looked okay. I really can't wait to see our photographers photo's! So exciting!

Anyways to get back on track here, the week before the wedding I decided that for me to actually lose this weight and keep it off was to go rejoin weight watchers and go to the meetings. To me being accountable that way and having to pay each week and weigh in would force me to stay on program. From past experiences I know that once I have two months under my belt I will be back into the swing of things. Then I started kicking myself thinking why didn't I do this before shortly after he proposed! I mean ~head smack. But oh well I thought I could do it on my own since that is how I did it the last time.

So tonight I attended my first WW meeting. I have to say that I like the new momentum plan. Its semi different but in a good way! I lost weight with WW about four years ago and I will do it again. The leader at the meeting I went to was awesome. I also just got called back to work and since I work straight afternoons I have to switch my weigh in day from tues to wed since that is the only day they have early meetings. The leader said that that one has a lot of people in it! So that will be fun! I definately need that extra push each week (the weigh ins at the meetings and attending them) to motivate me! So I am starting today. I look forward to the meeting next week. My starting weight is 190 with my 5% goal being 10 pounds loss and my 10% being 19. I have an idea in my head about where I want to end up but right now I am just going to concentrate on my 5% and 10% goal.

my measurements are: arms: 33.5 cm, hips: 114 cm, thighs: 64.5 cm, waist: 94 cm, bust: 103.5 cm. I plan on taking measurements every four weeks. Like my leader said sometimes when you don't lose in any given week or possibly gain you might not see a difference on the scale but you will in your measurements.

I am looking forward to my first weigh in to see how I did this coming week! Although I have to admit I am sort of nervous at the same time!